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Chemical Imbalance:

Thoughts & Feelings Of A Woman Experiencing The Depletion Of Estrogen.

Molecular Thoughts

My thoughts scattered.

A GPS without a satellite.

Being directed to enter and exit from the same on ramp.

This form of travel is unclear, distorted,

and unpleasant.

The road is uneven gravel.

As tires rotate bits of crushed concrete

spew in all

directions.

Disposition of emotions run rabid.

Exhibiting bared teeth,

an accumulation of dripping saliva that emanates into

effervescence, and

varied tones of inflection that escaped as each breath is exhaled.

To warn those around me.

My Mind and Body

are Depleted,

and are being Manipulated by the loss of

Estrogen.

I am over powered by the natural

process of aging.

What happened to that 17-year-old girl?

I feel her maiden within,

yet the mirror reflects

a middle-aged Woman

not yet a

Crone.

Who is this Woman?

Who cry’s for no reason?

Who is over whelmed by the intensity of

heat,

that no one else feels.

Her Mind & Body

deprived from sleep.

She dreams of the past,

fantasizing about her

future.

Trying to accept and embrace

this new phase of

Womanhood.

She lovingly embraces her Loved Ones

and Warns them.

Careful the edges of the eggshells are

sharp and jagged.

I’m trying my best to pick them up as they drop,

except as I pick up one

two drop.

I just want to be Me

Again.

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There She Was Right Before Me

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I had Envisioned meeting Her

for Oh so long.

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She Was Her Own Woman.

🌹

She possessed Everything I had Imagined.

🌹

We Connected, and Bonded

it was meant to be.

🌹

She was Bent, not Broken

just like me.

🌹

She Trusted, and Shared

the Spark

between Us was visibly there.

🌹

He entered the room smiling

as we lay there before him,

knowing she had met her match.

🌹

We playfully Seduced

his Mind, Body, and Soul.

As we Shared our

new-found Discovery of each other.

 

 

                         🔞  WARNING EXPLICIT SEXUAL THEME  🔞

Dear Friends,
We only have a 9 more days of May. Let’s take Full Advantage of Celebrating Pleasuring Ourselves.
Now we all know why Anastasia has not posted any material…

 

masturbation_month

 

 

 

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May is International Masturbation Month

Good Vibrations began celebrating National Masturbation Month in 1995! Earlier that year, then-Surgeon General Dr. Joycelyn Elders was fired for saying that masturbation should be discussed as part of young peoples’ sex education. We were astounded. It was one of the most sensible things we’d ever heard a government official say — and it cost Elders her job! We started National Masturbation Month — now International Masturbation Month with people celebrating across the globe! — to raise awareness and to highlight the importance of masturbation for nearly everyone: it’s safe, it’s healthy, it’s free, it’s pleasurable and it helps people get to know their bodies and their sexual responses. Of all the kinds of sex people can have, masturbation is the most universal and important, yet few people talk about it freely — worse, many people still feel it is “second best” or problematic in some way. Masturbation Month lets us emphasize how great it is: it’s natural, common and fun!

Why May?

Because “the merry, merry month of May” has long been seen as symbolizing sexual awakening. Also, because “May” and “masturbation” both start with “M” — it’s nice and alliterative.

Masturbation Resources

More articles about self-love:

*Advanced Masturbation Techniques for Men

http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=advanced-masturbation-techniques-for-men

*Masturbation Hall of Fame

http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=masturbation-hall-of-fame

*How to Choose a Vibrator

 http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=how-to-choose-a-vibrator

*How to Choose a Dildo 

http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=How-To-Choose-A-Dildo

*How to Enjoy Anal Sex 

http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=How-To-Enjoy-Anal-Sex

*How to Female Ejaculate 

http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=How-To-Female-Ejaculate

*Physiology of Pleasure

http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=735

*What is an Orgasm?

 http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=what-is-an-orgas

*Masturbation Toy Shopping Guide 

http://www.goodvibes.com/display_category.jhtml?id=catalog70002_cat33920

History of the Masturbation Taboo

Almost everyone masturbates, but all too few of us are willing to admit to enjoying this simple pleasure — mostly because of the taboo against masturbation in our society, which has its roots in historical misconceptions that have survived to the present day. Concerns about masturbation tend to fall into two general categories: that masturbation is dangerously wasteful or that it’s immature. The notion that masturbation is wasteful springs from the widespread misconception that men have a finite allotment of sperm and that every ejaculation depletes precious semen, resulting in exhaustion and weakness. Although women don’t produce semen, it was once believed that masturbation was similarly destructive and debilitating to them. The belief that masturbation is such a dangerous drain on energy that it can lead to enfeeblement, illness and ultimately insanity was so persistent in 18th, 19th and even 20th century Europe and America that treatments for preventing masturbation became something of an obsession.

Turn-of-the-century magazines featured advertisements for penile rings which were spiked on the inside so that if the wearer experienced an erection during the course of the night, he’d wake from the pain. Bondage belts, restraints, straitjackets, cauterizing irons and even clitoridectomy (the surgical excision of the clitoris) were all methods used to prevent young women from masturbating. American health reformers of the 19th century preached, as in these words from John Kellogg, that masturbation was “the vilest, the basest and the most degrading act that a human being can commit.”

Although most men and women today are aware that masturbation isn’t a “degrading act,” many are still constrained by the notion that it’s a selfish, immature activity or a second-rate substitute for partner sex. We live in a society in which sexual expression has always been legislated and restricted and the pursuit of pure pleasure is frequently condemned as selfish and childish. A lot of people who consider themselves free of sexual hang-ups have simply rewritten the equation “sex is only good if it involves procreation” to “sex is only good if it involves two loving people.” The fact that masturbation is a pleasurable end in itself gets short shrift in mainstream sex manuals, which focus on masturbation as a useful tool in the building of a better sex life with one’s partner. While it’s certainly true that masturbation provides valuable information about your own and your partners’ sexual responses, masturbation is much more than a means to the exalted end of better partner sex. Masturbation is our first sexual activity, a natural source of pleasure that’s available to us throughout our lives, and a unique form of creative self-expression. Each time you masturbate, you’re celebrating your sexuality and your innate capacity for pleasure, so give yourself a hand!

Masturbation Today

While giving yourself pleasure may seem as natural as taking a breath, masturbation is by no means a widely accepted form of sexual activity. Today, in many parts of the world (including the U.S.) children are punished if they are caught masturbating, which can affect their sexuality for the rest of their lives. Adults in cultures across the globe are presented with heterosexual marriage as the only acceptable form of sexual expression. Masturbation is not honored as an important form of safer sex, much less as a way a person can love herself, learn about himself, or exercise, as one wonderful Chinese euphemism puts it, “self-comfort.”

Masturbation can be a radical act, and the culture that suppresses masturbation may suppress many other personal freedoms as well. While celebrating Masturbation Month and doing your part to bring self-love out of the closet, keep in mind that erotic freedom is essential to true well-being, everywhere.

* Copied Directly From http://www.goodvibes.com/content.jhtml?id=masturbation-month-facts

 The Other Woman

 She knows well enough

to respect me.

She knows better than

to ignore me.

I like her in her own right.

I tell myself we should be friends,

not just because it will be easier

but also because it’s

so rare to find

anyone who

gets me

and gets him too.

I could use more friends like her.

And I gather, so could she.

***

 Men are not just scraps of meat,

over which we

think we must fight,

only to hurt ourselves

in the process.

We do not need to fight

over this man.

We are not bitches,

but we can share

the bone

like sisters.

With a common agenda

there is much

we can do

together to further

our own needs.

So much energy

wasted either in subterfuge,

detection,

or intervention.

Better to get it out

and get on with it

than to

cower

in the shadow

of denial

or self-deception.

She knows

I saw him first,

and I know

she won’t be the last

to notice him.

She also knows

that when I

follow my nature,

there will be times I will be glad

she will be there for him,

allowing me to take my leave

when and as I choose

when the glove is on the other hand.

***

She is the perfect

Other Woman.

She knows

what it is like

to walk in my shoes

and what hurts

as well as what feels good

if she will just let it.

I understand her completely

because

I have been her

for him

when someone else was me,

and I wanted to be honest

and remain her friend,

but such was not to be.

***

And now,

as I prepare to take my leave

to explore,

to experience

something new

with someone new

I realize that once again

I am the Other Woman

just as much as she is me.

I want to have so much

in common with this

enlightened woman

who sees me as I am,

accepts me,

even encourages me

to help find pleasure

with this man

she loves so much,

I can’t help

loving

her

for the way

that

she loves him.

If women

of uncommon

consciousness

found their friends

from among

their lovers’

paramours

they would never find themselves

lonely

or friendless

again.

I am the Other Woman

just as much as she is me.

 

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My Dear Readers,

It’s been 1 year since I started my blog.

I would like to take this opportunity to Thank All the Wonderful Authors, Writers, and Bloggers that I have connected with within our community. A day doesn’t go by that I don’t think of everyone.

You Have All Touched My Life.

I have not posted nor been active in our community lately, and I would like to share why.

After having my lumbar spine fused with plates and screws in 2003. I was left with Intractable Lumbar Pain.

I have had an implanted pain pump for the last 10 years. My now 2nd pump battery was due to shut off at the end of January 2014.

Our medical insurance changed leaving me to pay out an outrageous deductible before any payment for medical services would be payed out at 80%.

As a result my pump shut off and I was placed on pain pills. There is a Significant difference having medication delivered directly into my spine to manage my pain and a pill.

This has left me depressed, in pain, and my quality of life has taken a downward spiral.

In January of this year I had a chest x-ray as part of pre-operative orders.

(this was before finding out the insurance coverage deductible)

I have Ground Glass Nodules, and a few masses throughout my lung fields.

I’m in the process of seeing a Pulmonologist.

I’m still left in the same position of not being able to have a lung biopsy due to the F$%*ing insurance.

I went from living for me a somewhat active life, to being completely sedentary,

Frustrated, and depressed.

Please know I miss reading and commenting on All Your Works of Art.

With Much Love to All My Friends,

Anastasia

My Love

I Miss You

You are the smile within my heart

The life within my soul

You are the joy within my laughter

The half that makes me whole

You are the twinkle in my eyes

The hope in all my dreams

You are the inspiration in all I do

You are all I need

You are my tomorrow

Your love that gives me faith

You are my forever

And this will never change