My Will

This piece was composed by someone very close to my heart.
The Author has given me permission to share this.
Their thoughts on their present journey.

This touched my Heart and Soul.

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My Will

As I rest against this cold hard wall
Will
you pass me by?

*

Will

You criticize me as I sit and cry?

*

I had fought so hard and thought
that all my battles had been won.

*

Only to find the war has just begun.

*

Will
my weakness for an hour make me suffer
a lifetime?

*

Is there any other way to be,

to make me feel whole again?

*

If I’m healed, renewed, and found forgiveness within,
Will
I find the strength I’ve never had?

*

Will
my scars forever heal?

*

I

Will
turn my life over to a higher power,
and turn it all around.

*

In my most desperate circumstance it’s there
I have finally found, that I

Will

 be strong enough.

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That I’m pure enough,
to break me,
pour me out, and start again.

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To take a chance on Me.

The Other Woman

 The Other Woman

 She knows well enough

to respect me.

She knows better than

to ignore me.

I like her in her own right.

I tell myself we should be friends,

not just because it will be easier

but also because it’s

so rare to find

anyone who

gets me

and gets him too.

I could use more friends like her.

And I gather, so could she.

***

 Men are not just scraps of meat,

over which we

think we must fight,

only to hurt ourselves

in the process.

We do not need to fight

over this man.

We are not bitches,

but we can share

the bone

like sisters.

With a common agenda

there is much

we can do

together to further

our own needs.

So much energy

wasted either in subterfuge,

detection,

or intervention.

Better to get it out

and get on with it

than to

cower

in the shadow

of denial

or self-deception.

She knows

I saw him first,

and I know

she won’t be the last

to notice him.

She also knows

that when I

follow my nature,

there will be times I will be glad

she will be there for him,

allowing me to take my leave

when and as I choose

when the glove is on the other hand.

***

She is the perfect

Other Woman.

She knows

what it is like

to walk in my shoes

and what hurts

as well as what feels good

if she will just let it.

I understand her completely

because

I have been her

for him

when someone else was me,

and I wanted to be honest

and remain her friend,

but such was not to be.

***

And now,

as I prepare to take my leave

to explore,

to experience

something new

with someone new

I realize that once again

I am the Other Woman

just as much as she is me.

I want to have so much

in common with this

enlightened woman

who sees me as I am,

accepts me,

even encourages me

to help find pleasure

with this man

she loves so much,

I can’t help

loving

her

for the way

that

she loves him.

If women

of uncommon

consciousness

found their friends

from among

their lovers’

paramours

they would never find themselves

lonely

or friendless

again.

I am the Other Woman

just as much as she is me.

 

Happy Anniversary: My 1st Year

 

My Dear Readers,

It’s been 1 year since I started my blog.

I would like to take this opportunity to Thank All the Wonderful Authors, Writers, and Bloggers that I have connected with within our community. A day doesn’t go by that I don’t think of everyone.

You Have All Touched My Life.

I have not posted nor been active in our community lately, and I would like to share why.

After having my lumbar spine fused with plates and screws in 2003. I was left with Intractable Lumbar Pain.

I have had an implanted pain pump for the last 10 years. My now 2nd pump battery was due to shut off at the end of January 2014.

Our medical insurance changed leaving me to pay out an outrageous deductible before any payment for medical services would be payed out at 80%.

As a result my pump shut off and I was placed on pain pills. There is a Significant difference having medication delivered directly into my spine to manage my pain and a pill.

This has left me depressed, in pain, and my quality of life has taken a downward spiral.

In January of this year I had a chest x-ray as part of pre-operative orders.

(this was before finding out the insurance coverage deductible)

I have Ground Glass Nodules, and a few masses throughout my lung fields.

I’m in the process of seeing a Pulmonologist.

I’m still left in the same position of not being able to have a lung biopsy due to the F$%*ing insurance.

I went from living for me a somewhat active life, to being completely sedentary,

Frustrated, and depressed.

Please know I miss reading and commenting on All Your Works of Art.

With Much Love to All My Friends,

Anastasia

The Cat Found Her Mouse, The Dog Found His Bone: The Dinner Party: #5 of 7: Time To Say Good Night

  🔞Warning Mature Content🔞

Explicit Sexual Words & Themes

Time To Say Good Night

I leaned forward to reach for my drink Jake said “please let me get that for you”  as he handed it to me. “Thank you Darlin.” Our eyes met as he watched me bring the glass up to my lips, and sip at my drink. “Mmm I do love my Irish Cream on the rocks. Admittedly it does go straight to my head” I said smiling. “There is a sensuality in watching you sip your drink. The way you gently bring the glass up to your lips and just slightly tilt it allowing the liquid to roll into your mouth effortlessly.” I smiled playfully. “Jake.. anytime you desire placing any of your body against my lips or in my mouth you have an open invitation.” He grinned mischievously “Aahhh.. Kat don’t get me started, I’m already sporting a hard on.” “As much as I would love to touch you Jake….” I know he replied “this is definitely not the time or place.” “Jake you can be assured that my lips will touch you.”

“Kat..” “Yes Jake.” “I have to confess” As I gazed into his dreamy seductive eyes. “I’m quite attracted to Ian. His dominate features, and open-minded outlook is very appealing as are you my lovely Kat. Do you think anything could ever come to pass with us playing?” he asked with curiosity. “I  see a variety of play in our future. I foresee the three of us, and the two of you. Then I see me orchestrating, directing and adding a bit of kink in the mix” His face lit up like it was Christmas morning, as he raced to open the presents under the tree.“ I’m trying to figure out how to express to Ian my desires. I want to wrap my lips around his cock. Take him deep down my throat and make him spurt like a fountain. There are many more wicked acts I want to perform with and to him.” he expressed hungrily.

“Not to worry Jake… I have not doubt that Ian is aware of your attraction. He’s acutely observant, and I have no doubt he senses your best intentions. Perhaps you maybe surprised that he could be experiencing the same concerns as you.” I expressed compassionately.

Jake continued “I felt an overwhelming desire to fondle that magnificent outline his cock made in his pants while we talked before dinner. Of course this is not the time nor place. I believe first impressions are most important and foremost remembered” As we maintained eye contact. “I absolutely agree with you Jake.”

I expressed “Ian and I don’t participate within a social circle. Other than evenings like tonight when they are business orientated. You see Jake, Ian and I live with believing in Gratitude. Appreciating what we have, and what comes into our lives. We believe that like-minded people are brought together by unseen forces. Perhaps its the way we think outside the box, or the way we appreciate the box. This involves all aspects of our outlook regarding our relationship, sex, religion, yes and even politics. Both Ian and I need the companionship of a friend, and confidant.” Jake and I maintained eye contact as he nodded compassionately.

As Jake leaned back to reach his cell phone that was in his pant pocket. I took the opportunity to zoom in on the immensely defined bulge that outlined his crotch. Yahooo…this most definitely piqued my interest even more. “Kat would you like to exchange numbers?” “I’d like that and I have no doubt Ian feels the same way” As we were exchanging information, Ian and Chiaki were now walking back towards Jake and I. As they approach the love seat Jake leaned over and kissed me lightly on the lips.

(I didn’t see that coming, and loved it especially after that comment he made about how I drink.)

 He leaned forward picked up his drink stood up, and walked back to the love seat and sat next to Ian.

Chiaki sat down next to me on the love seat positioning herself in my direction. As she crossed her legs I could see she wasn’t wearing any panties. I caught a glimpse of her smooth-shaven snatch. (Thoughts ran wickedly as I imagined my face buried between her thighs.) “Did you enjoy dancing with Ian? Our eye’s met “yes I did, it gave us an opportunity to chat and get to know one another” she replied. Smiling I said “I’m elated the opportunity availed itself.” 

Chiaki announced “our hostess Lena is coming through the patio door right now.”  I said “its getting late I think it’s time for us to get going” Chiaki and Jake both nodded in agreement.

As Lena approached us she asked“may I refresh your drinks?” Ian replied “No thank you Lena, it’s getting late, its time for us to get going” Lena placed the empty glasses, and fruit platter on the tray, and walked into the house.

We all stood simultaneously and walked in pairs. Ian and I held hands. Jake and Chiaki walked side by side towards and through the glass door. Once inside we thanked our Host Michael and Hostess Lena for a lovely evening.

Ian and I decided to walk Chiaki and Jake to their cars. Jake walked closely to the right of me and said softly in my ear “I haven’t felt this wonderful after attending a dinner party. You have both made me feel comfortable just being me.” I put my right arm around Jake’s shoulder and turned my head in his direction, as he turned his head. Facing each other while walking I said “welcome to the family.”

First we walked Chiaki to her car. As we approached the car door she took her keys out of her clutch and disengaged the alarm. She turned and hugged Jake, and then took a step forward towards Ian and in unison they hug and then kissed lightly on the lips. She said to Ian“thank you for the lovely dance this evening. I had a Wonderful time.” 

We then gazed into each others eye’s. It was like she and I were the only ones standing out in the road.

In synch we walked towards each other. She positioned her body closely against mine. Wrapped both her arms around my shoulders, as I did to her petite figure. I could feel our tits rub against each other. That sent a jolt of lightning directly to my poonanie that endured much arousal this evening. I wanted nothing more than for us to get naked and rub and caress each others flesh. In that moment the thoughts that zipped through my mind of what I wanted to do to her body were probably illegal in most states.

She leaned upward her lips close to my ear as she spoke softly. I felt her warm breath against my ear “I will call you tomorrow, I want for us to spend the day together.” With our arms still around each other, I slightly leaned back to make eye contact. We gazed deeply. I smiled and said “I’m looking forward to seeing and spending time with you.” And then she….leaned in and kissed me so softly on the lips. This kiss made my Orchid Blush and I became considerably wet and extremely aroused. The feelings of infatuation and lust left me feeling intoxicated.

Chiaki turned around opened the driver door, and entered the car. As she started the engine she turned her head toward our direction smiled lovingly, and blew a kiss and drove off.

Ian, Jake and I walked across the street towards Jake’s car.  Jake turned to me and said “I’m looking forward to getting together, perhaps dinner?” “Yes we would like that.” “Great let me know how your schedules look.”  I said “Sounds good I’ll  call and let you know.” He turned to Ian and said “do you like to go fishing?” Ian turned in Jake’s direction and said excitedly “do I, it’s one of my many favorite hobbies.” “Fantastic! I will check out the tides, how does Saturday sound? We will take out the boat its docked at the Marina.” Ian’s face lit up with excitement.

As we approached Jake’s car, he pulled his keys out of his pocket. Disengaged the alarm. As the three of us stood in front of the driver door, Jake leaned forward and wrapped his arms around my shoulders hugging me snugly. Then leaned back and kissed me gently on the lips. “Kat it was a pleasure to have met you tonight, I’m looking forward to what the future shall bring,” I hugged him and said “Jake there are no coincides, it was meant to be I couldn’t be more delighted I’ll call you.”

Jake turned towards Ian as they simultaneously shook hands, and then gave each other a brisk hug. Jake said “I’ll be in touch to let you know about the fishing outing” Ian replied “That sounds great.” Jake opened the driver’s door entered the car, and turn the engine over. He looked in our direction and waved as he pulled away.

Ian and I walked towards our car. As we were talking about the events that took place tonight. We were in mutual agreement that there are no coincidence. This was what we both wanted for ourselves and each other. As we approached the car Ian gently and with intent pushed me against the passenger door and passionately kissed me. He said “Honey have I told you how much I love you today?” Mmmm I said “you know my memory”  We hugged each other tightly and entered the car and drove home.

Stayed Tuned for more adventures of these Daredevils of Deviance

 

 

Shine On Award

SHINE ON AWARD

My Dear Friend, and Fellow Blogger Jon aka Writingthebody (writingthebody.wordpress.com)

has so Thoughtfully Gifted me with this Exquisite Award.

With Accepting this Gracious Award I must complete the following questions, and pass this Award to no more than 15 Blogger’s.

 Please answer the following questions, and pass this Award on, to no more than 15 Blogger’s.

1.  Rank these kinds of weather from best to worst: Sunny and hot, misty and cold, rain and cool, snow, ice, windy

Rain & Cool/Windy/Misty & Cold/Sunny & Hot/Snow/Ice

2.  Do you like outdoor music festivals?

I’m in agreement with Writingthebody, I don’t care for them at all!

3.  Do you like drinking water?

Yes absolutely, with freshly squeezed lemon. So Yummy

4.  Favourite alcoholic drink

I don’t drink any alcoholic beverages, although if I do on a rare occasion. I would have to say Irish Cream on the rocks.

5.  Best drug experience

Cocaine, and Amphetamines

6.  Most fun while not taking anything

Spending “Private Time” with My Lover.

7.  Greatest sorrow

The death of my Brother “Robbie”. His life was taken at the young age of 14, in 1982 from Reye’s Syndrome

As much, as I would Love to pass this Award to ALL THE BLOGGER’S THAT I FOLLOW, I’m limited to 15.

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE FOLLOWING BLOGGER’S

1. DreamlandDancing http://dreamlanddancing.wordpress.com

Your Intellectual, Creative, and Thought Provoking writings Inspire Me.

2. Kelly (slavekelly) http://aprescriptionforslavery.com

Although we are traveling on different paths within our  journey to our Enlightenment. We have a Bond & Sisterly Connection that is Dear to my Heart, that I will Always Treasure.

3. Gabriel http://beatensub.wordpress.com

I admire your Strength & Courage. Your writing’s consisting of Emotional Pain, Heartbreak, and Heartache and are to be commended

4. Alice http://aliceinwunderland41.wordpress.com

I Admire your writings of your transformation from “Vanilla”  to your submissive role within the BDSM lifestyle.

5. DominatSoul http://dominantsoul.wordpress.com

Your writings on Intimacy, Sensuality, and all your topics on How To: has Definitely Enlightened My Sexuality and Sensuality.

6. Man Behind The Steel Mask http://manbehindthesteelmask.wordpress.com

Perhaps One day the Man Behind  The Mask Will Reveal Himself

7. The Wistful Sinner http://thewistfulsinner.wordpress.com

Who could ask for anything better, than your delightfully dirty posting’s

8.Kayla Lords http://kaylalords.wordpress.com

Thank you Kayla for ALL your AMAZING POST’S on A Sexual Being, and e[lust] :The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. How Awesome is that site to visit : ).

9. Harsh Reality aka http://aopinionatedman.com

I Love Your I Don’t Give A #$%* Attitude

10.Mari’Mar http://unravelingmarimar.wordpress.com

You offer a variety of posting’s within the submissive lifestyle. I enjoy your Blog’s very much.

11.Thoughts Of A Lunatic http://thoughtsofalunatic.com

I Love your writings, Real Life.

12. The Adventures of Little Panda http://daddyspanda.wordpress.com

I enjoy your posting’s on your submissive relationship.

13. A Dissolute Life Means.. http://adissolutelifemeans.com

Hy, I adore your starting Boob Day. Who doesn’t enjoy looking at great Breast’s : )

14. Growing Up Little http://growinguplittle.wordpress.com

Your informative posting on book reviews, and sharing your discoveries is greatly appreciated from this follower.

15 Sub-Odyssey http://subodyssey.wordpress.com

I admire your writing’s, about your experience’s as a submissive within the BDSM lifestyle.