Chemical Imbalance: Thoughts And Feelings Of A Woman Experiencing The Depletion Of Estrogen

 

Chemical Imbalance:

Thoughts & Feelings Of A Woman Experiencing The Depletion Of Estrogen.

My thoughts scattered.

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A GPS without a satellite.

Being directed to enter and exit from the same on ramp.

This form of travel is unclear, distorted,

and unpleasant.

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The road is uneven gravel.

As tires rotate bits of crushed concrete

spew in all

directions.

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Disposition of emotions run rabid.

Exhibiting bared teeth,

an accumulation of dripping saliva that emanates into

effervescence, and

varied tones of inflection that escaped as each breath is exhaled.

To warn those around me.

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My Mind and Body

are Depleted,

and are being Manipulated by the loss of

Estrogen.

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I am over powered by the natural

process of aging.

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What happened to that 17-year-old girl?

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I feel her maiden within,

yet the mirror reflects

a middle-aged Woman

not yet a

Crone.

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Who is this Woman?

Who cry’s for no reason?

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Who is over whelmed by the intensity of

heat,

that no one else feels.

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Her Mind & Body

deprived from sleep.

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She dreams of the past,

fantasizing about her

future.

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Trying to accept and embrace

this new phase of

Womanhood.

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She lovingly embraces her Loved Ones

and Warns them.

♀

Careful the edges of the eggshells are

sharp and jagged.

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I’m trying my best to pick them up as they drop,

except as I pick up one

two drop.

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I just want to be Me

Again.

My Will

This piece was composed by someone very close to my heart.
The Author has given me permission to share this.
Their thoughts on their present journey.

This touched my Heart and Soul.

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My Will

As I rest against this cold hard wall
Will
you pass me by?

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Will

You criticize me as I sit and cry?

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I had fought so hard and thought
that all my battles had been won.

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Only to find the war has just begun.

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Will
my weakness for an hour make me suffer
a lifetime?

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Is there any other way to be,

to make me feel whole again?

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If I’m healed, renewed, and found forgiveness within,
Will
I find the strength I’ve never had?

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Will
my scars forever heal?

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I

Will
turn my life over to a higher power,
and turn it all around.

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In my most desperate circumstance it’s there
I have finally found, that I

Will

 be strong enough.

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That I’m pure enough,
to break me,
pour me out, and start again.

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To take a chance on Me.