My Will

This piece was composed by someone very close to my heart.
The Author has given me permission to share this.
Their thoughts on their present journey.

This touched my Heart and Soul.

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My Will

As I rest against this cold hard wall
Will
you pass me by?

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Will

You criticize me as I sit and cry?

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I had fought so hard and thought
that all my battles had been won.

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Only to find the war has just begun.

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Will
my weakness for an hour make me suffer
a lifetime?

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Is there any other way to be,

to make me feel whole again?

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If I’m healed, renewed, and found forgiveness within,
Will
I find the strength I’ve never had?

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Will
my scars forever heal?

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I

Will
turn my life over to a higher power,
and turn it all around.

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In my most desperate circumstance it’s there
I have finally found, that I

Will

 be strong enough.

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That I’m pure enough,
to break me,
pour me out, and start again.

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To take a chance on Me.

The Other Woman

 The Other Woman

 She knows well enough

to respect me.

She knows better than

to ignore me.

I like her in her own right.

I tell myself we should be friends,

not just because it will be easier

but also because it’s

so rare to find

anyone who

gets me

and gets him too.

I could use more friends like her.

And I gather, so could she.

***

 Men are not just scraps of meat,

over which we

think we must fight,

only to hurt ourselves

in the process.

We do not need to fight

over this man.

We are not bitches,

but we can share

the bone

like sisters.

With a common agenda

there is much

we can do

together to further

our own needs.

So much energy

wasted either in subterfuge,

detection,

or intervention.

Better to get it out

and get on with it

than to

cower

in the shadow

of denial

or self-deception.

She knows

I saw him first,

and I know

she won’t be the last

to notice him.

She also knows

that when I

follow my nature,

there will be times I will be glad

she will be there for him,

allowing me to take my leave

when and as I choose

when the glove is on the other hand.

***

She is the perfect

Other Woman.

She knows

what it is like

to walk in my shoes

and what hurts

as well as what feels good

if she will just let it.

I understand her completely

because

I have been her

for him

when someone else was me,

and I wanted to be honest

and remain her friend,

but such was not to be.

***

And now,

as I prepare to take my leave

to explore,

to experience

something new

with someone new

I realize that once again

I am the Other Woman

just as much as she is me.

I want to have so much

in common with this

enlightened woman

who sees me as I am,

accepts me,

even encourages me

to help find pleasure

with this man

she loves so much,

I can’t help

loving

her

for the way

that

she loves him.

If women

of uncommon

consciousness

found their friends

from among

their lovers’

paramours

they would never find themselves

lonely

or friendless

again.

I am the Other Woman

just as much as she is me.

 

Happy Anniversary: My 1st Year

 

My Dear Readers,

It’s been 1 year since I started my blog.

I would like to take this opportunity to Thank All the Wonderful Authors, Writers, and Bloggers that I have connected with within our community. A day doesn’t go by that I don’t think of everyone.

You Have All Touched My Life.

I have not posted nor been active in our community lately, and I would like to share why.

After having my lumbar spine fused with plates and screws in 2003. I was left with Intractable Lumbar Pain.

I have had an implanted pain pump for the last 10 years. My now 2nd pump battery was due to shut off at the end of January 2014.

Our medical insurance changed leaving me to pay out an outrageous deductible before any payment for medical services would be payed out at 80%.

As a result my pump shut off and I was placed on pain pills. There is a Significant difference having medication delivered directly into my spine to manage my pain and a pill.

This has left me depressed, in pain, and my quality of life has taken a downward spiral.

In January of this year I had a chest x-ray as part of pre-operative orders.

(this was before finding out the insurance coverage deductible)

I have Ground Glass Nodules, and a few masses throughout my lung fields.

I’m in the process of seeing a Pulmonologist.

I’m still left in the same position of not being able to have a lung biopsy due to the F$%*ing insurance.

I went from living for me a somewhat active life, to being completely sedentary,

Frustrated, and depressed.

Please know I miss reading and commenting on All Your Works of Art.

With Much Love to All My Friends,

Anastasia

Shine On Award

SHINE ON AWARD

My Dear Friend, and Fellow Blogger Jon aka Writingthebody (writingthebody.wordpress.com)

has so Thoughtfully Gifted me with this Exquisite Award.

With Accepting this Gracious Award I must complete the following questions, and pass this Award to no more than 15 Blogger’s.

 Please answer the following questions, and pass this Award on, to no more than 15 Blogger’s.

1.  Rank these kinds of weather from best to worst: Sunny and hot, misty and cold, rain and cool, snow, ice, windy

Rain & Cool/Windy/Misty & Cold/Sunny & Hot/Snow/Ice

2.  Do you like outdoor music festivals?

I’m in agreement with Writingthebody, I don’t care for them at all!

3.  Do you like drinking water?

Yes absolutely, with freshly squeezed lemon. So Yummy

4.  Favourite alcoholic drink

I don’t drink any alcoholic beverages, although if I do on a rare occasion. I would have to say Irish Cream on the rocks.

5.  Best drug experience

Cocaine, and Amphetamines

6.  Most fun while not taking anything

Spending “Private Time” with My Lover.

7.  Greatest sorrow

The death of my Brother “Robbie”. His life was taken at the young age of 14, in 1982 from Reye’s Syndrome

As much, as I would Love to pass this Award to ALL THE BLOGGER’S THAT I FOLLOW, I’m limited to 15.

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE FOLLOWING BLOGGER’S

1. DreamlandDancing http://dreamlanddancing.wordpress.com

Your Intellectual, Creative, and Thought Provoking writings Inspire Me.

2. Kelly (slavekelly) http://aprescriptionforslavery.com

Although we are traveling on different paths within our  journey to our Enlightenment. We have a Bond & Sisterly Connection that is Dear to my Heart, that I will Always Treasure.

3. Gabriel http://beatensub.wordpress.com

I admire your Strength & Courage. Your writing’s consisting of Emotional Pain, Heartbreak, and Heartache and are to be commended

4. Alice http://aliceinwunderland41.wordpress.com

I Admire your writings of your transformation from “Vanilla”  to your submissive role within the BDSM lifestyle.

5. DominatSoul http://dominantsoul.wordpress.com

Your writings on Intimacy, Sensuality, and all your topics on How To: has Definitely Enlightened My Sexuality and Sensuality.

6. Man Behind The Steel Mask http://manbehindthesteelmask.wordpress.com

Perhaps One day the Man Behind  The Mask Will Reveal Himself

7. The Wistful Sinner http://thewistfulsinner.wordpress.com

Who could ask for anything better, than your delightfully dirty posting’s

8.Kayla Lords http://kaylalords.wordpress.com

Thank you Kayla for ALL your AMAZING POST’S on A Sexual Being, and e[lust] :The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. How Awesome is that site to visit : ).

9. Harsh Reality aka http://aopinionatedman.com

I Love Your I Don’t Give A #$%* Attitude

10.Mari’Mar http://unravelingmarimar.wordpress.com

You offer a variety of posting’s within the submissive lifestyle. I enjoy your Blog’s very much.

11.Thoughts Of A Lunatic http://thoughtsofalunatic.com

I Love your writings, Real Life.

12. The Adventures of Little Panda http://daddyspanda.wordpress.com

I enjoy your posting’s on your submissive relationship.

13. A Dissolute Life Means.. http://adissolutelifemeans.com

Hy, I adore your starting Boob Day. Who doesn’t enjoy looking at great Breast’s : )

14. Growing Up Little http://growinguplittle.wordpress.com

Your informative posting on book reviews, and sharing your discoveries is greatly appreciated from this follower.

15 Sub-Odyssey http://subodyssey.wordpress.com

I admire your writing’s, about your experience’s as a submissive within the BDSM lifestyle.